I’m done trying. I give up. I don’t know why I thought things would be different this time. No GED pre-test for me today. No getting up. No new wheelchair. Just the same shit, different day. If not for the kids, I’d just completely check out. Nothing for me otherwise. No one to spend my life with, no goals, no cares, no point. I’m done.
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- Here we are again by LilCube
So, no longer with the lady. As always, I fucked it up. Insecurities and a feeling of uselessness is and always be my downfall. She’s happy though so I’m happy. She made me a better person. No regrets. I miss her but it is what it is. Won’t dwell. As for me. I’m making strides.[…]
- August 17 by LilCube
Woke up early to being quarantined. Apparently mom was exposed, but we have no idea who, as she doesn’t really talk to anyone. So that’s fun. I’m moving out soon. It’s scary, but necessary. My mental health needs it. Tre’ is coming along which is nice, but I hope he gets his shit together. Word[…]
- Weekly wrap up by LilCube
Sis tried to kill herself with a bottle of benadryl. She’s still in the psyche ward on watch. So there’s that. Tayonna attacked staff Thursday yet still got a pass Friday to come home. Not sure how that works. Shockingly she’s been a terror since being here. Reward bad behavior and surprise, she continues being[…]
- I want for nothing by LilCube
Someone recently asked me what I want. In life. In general. Anything. And I didn’t have an answer. Even after thinking about it a while. I had nothing. Figured I’d sleep on it. Still nothing. It’s really bothering me that there’s nothing in life I want. I mean there’s obvious easy answers. Sis being clean(she’s[…]
- I didn’t miss me either by LilCube
So I’m back…I guess. Not a lot has changed. Older. Grumpier. Blessed. Not reading as much. Not watching as much. Not going out…ever. Some shit has changed. Niece is in state care. She’s defiant, angry, spiteful, and just not overly pleasant right now. She’s in a state hospital residency thing. Oldest has really gone downhill.[…]
- Just get it all out there… by LilCube
Ok, here’s my last bitchy, whiny, woe is me, life sucks, lonely, shit stain of an existence post…for awhile. I spent over half my life without female companionship. The saying “ignorance is bliss” has never been so perfect. I had no idea what I was missing as I didn’t have it. I was “happy” in[…]
- Pointless blog post… by LilCube
Since my last post, nothings changed. Still a miserable fuck. Have found myself a new play thing. Blonde, young(just turned 23), cute, sexy, and…fun 😉 Best part, she lives many states away and other than the physical there’s no connection. It gets my mind off…things. Which is good. I miss having someone to talk to,[…]
- “I hate life.” by LilCube
This has been my daily mantra every morning for like 3 years. Sure there were some days that were okay. Sprinkles of hope here and there. There was Tiffany, which at the time seemed amazing, but seriously. That was a fucking nightmare. Yay me! I got to fuck a lying, drug addict. And that was[…]
- Personality test… by LilCube
Personality Disorder Test Results Paranoid |||||||||||||||| 66% Schizoid |||||||||||| 42% Schizotypal |||||||||||||||| 70% Antisocial |||| 14% Borderline |||||||||||||||||||| 82% Histrionic |||||||||||| 46% Narcissistic || 10% Avoidant |||||||||||||||||| 74% Dependent |||||||||||||||||||| 82% Obsessive-Compulsive |||||||||||| 50% Take Free Personality Disorder TestPersonality Test by SimilarMinds.com The top 4 disorder descriptions Borderline Personality Disorder – individual shows a generalized[…]
- Just random musings… by LilCube
Been awhile huh? Not too terrible much to talk about as I’m kind of lazy as you well know. Let’s see…I’ve been out once since going to see The Dark Knight Rises. It was not a good time. We took the kids to Chuck E. Cheese in Joplin. It was hot as fuck and damn[…]
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- Shawnee on Nothing changes…I bet if you really focused on controlling you and suck with it for a while the rest of it…
- LilCube on Nothing changes…Unfortunately, I need help to do the things I wanna do. I'm not getting that help...so what's the point of…
- Shawnee on Nothing changes…Why the change of mind?
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- Tony on Well fuck me sideways!why God? If I eat my broccoli, say my prayers and reject the influence of sex, drugs and rock and…
- LilCube on Reading is FUN-damentalGlad I could help:)
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- lastcountryangel on I’m done.My suggestion would be support us then instead of trying to tear my family apart - let us heal and…