So I’m back…I guess. Not a lot has changed. Older. Grumpier. Blessed. Not reading as much. Not watching as much. Not going out…ever. Some shit has changed. Niece is in state care. She’s defiant, angry, spiteful, and just not overly pleasant right now. She’s in a state hospital residency thing. Oldest has really gone downhill.[…]
Well, had the big family x-mas yesterday and unfortunately I was in attendance. Despite my vow to never attend one of these shindigs again, I was guilted into going by my gramps. He’s good, he’s very good. As per usual, I avoided everyone and everyone avoided me. I’m not complaining, I prefer it this way.[…]
Woke up early to being quarantined. Apparently mom was exposed, but we have no idea who, as she doesn’t really talk to anyone. So that’s fun. I’m moving out soon. It’s scary, but necessary. My mental health needs it. Tre’ is coming along which is nice, but I hope he gets his shit together. Word[…]
Sis tried to kill herself with a bottle of benadryl. She’s still in the psyche ward on watch. So there’s that. Tayonna attacked staff Thursday yet still got a pass Friday to come home. Not sure how that works. Shockingly she’s been a terror since being here. Reward bad behavior and surprise, she continues being[…]
Someone recently asked me what I want. In life. In general. Anything. And I didn’t have an answer. Even after thinking about it a while. I had nothing. Figured I’d sleep on it. Still nothing. It’s really bothering me that there’s nothing in life I want. I mean there’s obvious easy answers. Sis being clean(she’s[…]
So I’m back…I guess. Not a lot has changed. Older. Grumpier. Blessed. Not reading as much. Not watching as much. Not going out…ever. Some shit has changed. Niece is in state care. She’s defiant, angry, spiteful, and just not overly pleasant right now. She’s in a state hospital residency thing. Oldest has really gone downhill.[…]
Ok, here’s my last bitchy, whiny, woe is me, life sucks, lonely, shit stain of an existence post…for awhile. I spent over half my life without female companionship. The saying “ignorance is bliss” has never been so perfect. I had no idea what I was missing as I didn’t have it. I was “happy” in[…]
Since my last post, nothings changed. Still a miserable fuck. Have found myself a new play thing. Blonde, young(just turned 23), cute, sexy, and…fun 😉 Best part, she lives many states away and other than the physical there’s no connection. It gets my mind off…things. Which is good. I miss having someone to talk to,[…]
This has been my daily mantra every morning for like 3 years. Sure there were some days that were okay. Sprinkles of hope here and there. There was Tiffany, which at the time seemed amazing, but seriously. That was a fucking nightmare. Yay me! I got to fuck a lying, drug addict. And that was[…]
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Been awhile huh? Not too terrible much to talk about as I’m kind of lazy as you well know. Let’s see…I’ve been out once since going to see The Dark Knight Rises. It was not a good time. We took the kids to Chuck E. Cheese in Joplin. It was hot as fuck and damn[…]
So we had ourselves another night of drunkenness. This time everybody’s favorite curmudgeon was in attendance and he got…well drunk. With that said, I got very very drunk, and very very fast. I don’t know what the hell hit me so hard but it really fucked me up. I slept through a good portion of[…]
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