Current Mood: Rockin’

Well X-Mas has come and gone without incident. Well almost. There was the small incident of Tay tipping my chair back and my head bouncing off the floor. This is is why I stay in bed lol. Scared the shit out of her. Tre on the other hand wanted to beat her up cuz he thought she did it on purpose. Cooler heads prevailed and all was right with the world. Other than that small incident it was a pretty enjoyable day.

Kids got a buttload of crap. Tre got some Transformers, some wrestlers, about 10 hoodies, 3 movies(Like Mike, Major Payne, and Kung Fu Panda) and other misc crap. We’ve already watched Like Mike and Kung Fu Panda 3 times each. Tay got some baby doll stuff, a kitchen, an mp3 player, and some barbie movies, as well as other misc crap. Oogie got some sleepers, a ball popper(put the balls in, they pop out), a Mozart music cube, and other stuff I don’t recall. It was a good day. Now on to the pictures…on my myspace…cuz I’m lazy

…and I’m out

Current Mood: Bad & Depressed

A couple days ago I had the oddest conversation I personally have ever had. If you’ve been reading my blog for awhile you probably know, I’m not a fan of she who shall not be named’s insignificant other. Currently he’s still in jail, but out of nowhere he called me yesterday. What’s odd about it, is in the 5 or so years he’s been with she who shall not be named, we’ve never once had a conversation. Our conversations consisted of “wanna play a game or somethin?”. Followed by mono syllabic answers, and cursing under our breath when something doesn’t go right in the game. Yet, when he called, we actually talked. He asked about the kids. He sounds like he’s doing well. He’s in treatment, taking some classes, and generally sounds positive. It was quite the shocker. The oddest thing…he told me he loved me. I was completely dumbfounded as it caught me so off guard my initial response was to chuckle a little. Then he repeated it to show his seriousness and I responded in kind. I know, probably a bad move considering I barely like the dude. Maybe he is changing, maybe this stint in jail, coupled with the loss of custody made him re-assess his situation in life….orrrrrrrrr maybe he’s full of shit, and is as good a liar and manipulator as she who shall not be named. Time will tell I guess. I will say, I was impressed by how he sounded. He seemed to have a pretty positive outlook on the present and future…he seemed to be doing shit tons better than she who shall not be named. We’ll see…we will see.

In other much, much more depressing news my Grandmother had another set back yesterday night after having one of her better days. It doesn’t look good. She needs another surgery which the doctors feel she likely will not be strong enough to get through, but without it, there’s no hope. It’s a lose/lose situation with very little hope and it sucks. I don’t know what else to say…or do. I just try to keep myself busy. Don’t let my mind wander. Unfortunately for me, I’ve been home by myself quite a bit as my mom and family are at the hospital. I just can’t do it(go to the hospital). Everybody handles this type of situation in their own way. I prefer to keep to myself. Other’s just confuse the situation for me more, make it more difficult to deal with. I’ll get through it…Somehow, I always do.

Moving on…The kids have completely regressed since she who shall not be named got a full day pass/visit(previous post). Tayonna is just as she was when all this initially started. It’s so fucking frustrating. Tre isn’t listening for shit. I just don’t know. I’m not cut out for this parenting shit. I’ll continue to do what I need to do, but I won’t be happy about it.

In other news…we leave for comic-con in 8 days for a much, much needed vacation. I’m out!

Current Mood: Bad & Frustrated

…and she who shall not be named. So, somehow she got a full day visit for 4th of July. I admit, she’s apparently done well for a week leading upto the 4th but really? You clean yourself up for a fuckin’ week after doing jack fuckall for 3 months and you get rewarded? The legal system is broken beyond repair.

In the day and a half, I said maybe 50 words to her. The kids were so bad. Especially Tayonna. She completely regressed to the Tayonna of old. Not listening to anything…at all…ever. Tre was bad but not as much. His biggest problem was every time he didn’t get his way he told her he never wanted to see her again. Which I talked to him about.

The worse part, other than Tayonna being a total hellion, was she who shall not be named constantly trying to guilt the kids into doing stuff with her. It pissed me off. A lot. Her parenting needs a lot of work. If she was father of our nation, we’d be a 3rd world country. She slept almost the entire day Friday. It just was not a good time at all. Yet to see how it’ll effect the kids. Tre’ seems to be doing alright. Who knows. Anyway…

Side note…Comic-con is less than two weeks away bitches!

That is all.

Current Mood: Frustrated

She called yesterday…not to talk the kids. Actually I don’t know why she called. Anyway, I answered and I was short with her like I always am. No small talk, just yes/no/maybe type answers. So she calls mom and cries to her because I’m apparently being mean to her. And that I should be over it already as “it” happened back in February. “It” being damn near starving her youngest to death, complete neglect of her other 2 children, and drug use which led to said neglect. She’s yet to do one thing in an effort to better her life and get her kids back. She still constantly lies. Everything is, Poor me, poor fuckin’ Shell. Not, “damn I fucked up…big. My kids are suffering because I fucked up. Maybe I should get my priorities straight so I can be a fit, loving mother.” Yet I should apparently act like nothing happened because, “it happened all the way back in February”. They say time heals wounds but not if you keep picking at the fucking wound. So, she has decided to no longer call my phone. Somehow, I’ll get over it.

Tre also can’t go to Cali with us now, because the Judge doesn’t want him to miss any possible visitations with his “mother”. Even though she rarely sees them anyway. She canceled visitation this week cuz she scratched her eyeball and “it might scare the kids”. Yeah, fuckin’ ridiculous. I don’t know how she even still has a chance at getting her kids back. Just pisses me off. It’s hard to believe we were so close once. Now she’s practically a stranger. In the immortal words of Rick James…”Cocaine…hell of a drug.”

Current Mood: Indifferent

…to post about, but figured I should blog. Been a few days, but just haven’t been in the mood. Still not. Sooooo…hmmm. Getting myself an ID Card Tuesday so I can actually get into Comic-Con. Can’t fricken’ wait. Then we’re heading to Pittsburg to do a little shopping. Mostly groceries, but I’m sure the kids will end up with something…they always do. Tre got a spiffy electric guitar toy today. It plays like 14 songs, and he can hook his mp3 player into it, and it is way too advanced for a 5 year old. But he’s enjoying it so I guess that’s what counts. I’ll probably get a DVD or two. Trying to cut back since I plan to get a Blu-ray player aka a PS3. May just get a few Blu-ray DVD’s as my new laptop has a Blu-ray drive. I hate saving money…and I’m not very good at it.

In completely different, yet still media related news, the new Bizzy Bone Cd is really good. Been listening to a lot of 90’s R&B, particularly Jodeci, Silk, and Shai. Also a bunch of underground Hip-Hop. There’s a lot of good shit out there if you look. I’m really digging Napster. On the other hand, I’m not really diggin’ the new Gnarls Barkley cd. It’s still good, but not near as good as St. Elsewhere. I’ll probably post an mp3 Saturday. I’m thinking K-Ci & Jojo.

Watched Juno again today. Great movie. Just fuckin’ hilarious. Random quotes from the movie…

“That ain’t no Etch A Sketch. This is one doodle that can’t be undid, Homeskillet.”
“Thundercat’s are gooooooo!” - My favorite quote
“Next time I see that Bleeker kid I’m going to punch him in the wiener.”
“You shoulda gone to China. You know, ’cause I hear they give away babies like free iPods. You know they pretty much just put them in those t-shirt guns and shoot them out at sporting events.”
“Like I’d marry you, you’d be the meanest wife ever ok? And I know that you weren’t bored that day. Because there was a lot of stuff on tv and The Blair Witch Project was coming on Stars and you were like, “I haven’t seen this since it came out and so we should watch it,” but oh no we should just make out instead la la la…”
“Well, you know, I was thinking I’d just nip it in the bud, before it gets worse, because they were talking about it in health class, how pregnancy, it can often lead to… an infant.”

Not much else going on. Kids had visitation today. By all accounts everything went well. She who shall not be named, actually had the gall to call my mom a bad mother the other day. Yeah. Fuckin’ unbelievable. Also 7 days of drug/alcohol classes is apparently too much for her. “She can quit anytime she wants.” Her words, not mine. Apparently she doesn’t want to.

Anyway, can’t wait for Comic-Con! I’m almost looking forward to all the folks in costume than the actual show. It’s gonna be glorious.

Current Mood: Indifferent

Went to the dentist Monday. All went well. Getting a couple of crowns. Had some mild pain until today. Nothing bad. For some reason I was just “blah” all day. From the moment I woke up till I got up Tuesday. I’m usually pretty talkative at the dentist. Not Monday, I just watched a movie on my media player. Went to Wal-Mart afterwards. Got some snacks for the kids…and me…and my cousins…and Cody. Mom bought me a movie. The Doors to be exact. Greatest group ever. Then came home. That is the extent of my exciting day.

In dumb fuckin’ people news. First off, my mom’s best friends kid was caught shoplifting. He’s likely going to lock-up. I think he’s 14. Her worry…losing his child support.

In more dumb fuckin’ people news. She who shall not be named got her stimulus check. She immediately goes to the city and gets “robbed”. She claims to have been robbed, made to get naked and stole her shoes as well. But when she called her friend’s, she apparently was feeling no pain and didn’t seem upset. Coincidence? I think not. She’s been “robbed” more than anybody in the history of ever. Whenever she gets any good amount of money, it disappears within’ two days. She might soon be homeless as she is quickly burning all her bridges. She’s staying with the aforementioned friend’s and they also smoke weed and wet. And they’re about done with her. You know things are bad when drug addicts are sick of your shit.

To top things off, she’s gonna miss visitation because she going to Nevin’s court appearance. Yep, she’d rather go see the loser du jour, than her awesome fricken’ kids. Her loss. Right now the kids are better off without her.

And that’s all in dumb fuckin’ people news.

Current Mood: Chill

…for Tre this year. Tre had his b-day with his mom Friday. They(she who shall not be named and her insignificant other) were supposed to come to the house. But of course they were gonna be 2 hours late. God forbid they show up on time to see their kids. Anyway, so instead of coming here, things were changed. They ended up meeting at the “Farm”. It’s the group that handles these cases. By all accounts, things went well. She who shall not be named got him Avatar…allegedly. And his “dad” got him 3 outfits. She who shall not be named was supposed to provide the cake, but of course that didn’t happen either.

Best part of the day…After the festivities were over, Nevin was immediately picked up and is in jail without bond. Of course the kids were not witness to it. As my mom pulled out with the kids, the police pulled in after, and blocked the path of their vehicle and took Nevin in. He’s looking at I believe a 7-10 year stay over at Casa de Criminale. All for a bunch of driving improprieties. Stuuuuupid man. Kids don’t know he’s in jail yet. They don’t need to know. Hopefully he gets lost in the system. Maybe hell will freeze over and he’ll actually smarten up. Bigger miracles have happened…or so I hear.

Current Mood: Bad

What a waste, right? I bought some awhile back. Like about 8 months ago. Just never wore them, ever. I preferred my black Chuck Taylors. Well today, I finally wore them…and well, nothing to report. Apparently they don’t cure paralysis. I know, I’m just as upset as you are. Aw well, I must move on.

I went to Tre’s first t-ball scrimmage today. It did not go well. It’s safe to say, Tre’ is totally not diggin’ America’s past time. Pictures upcoming. I think we may have to wait until next year. Luckily the glove, and helmet we got him will still be usable for a couple of years. He whined, cried, played in the dirt, got upset cuz he didn’t get the ball every time. It was not a pretty picture…and here they are…including my Jordan’s! As well as a couple good pics of Oogie.

Current Mood: Indifferent

Well yesterday was my 31st birthday and as per usual I went out to my grandparents yesterday to celebrate. My birthday fell on Mother’s Day this year so we also celebrated Mother’s Day…aaand Tre’s birthday is the 15th so we went ahead and celebrated it….aaaand it my Aunt Becky’s birthday is the 14th so we celebrated it….aaaand her Mother-in-law’s birthday is some day in May so we celebrated it as well.

The star of the show was obviously Tre. I haven’t really celebrated my birthday since my 18th. I just don’t care much. I got pretty much everything I need and I’m much more happy giving than receiving. So yesterday was all about Trizzay. We got him a Spider Man ice cream cake and present wise he got a t-ball helmet, a KU basketball, and a bunch of basketball cards. I got him a basketball goal as well but it’s yet to get here.

Surprisingly, she who shall not be named called to wish me a happy birthday. Tre wished her a Happy Mother’s day and then I got off the phone as soon as I could. I just don’t feel the need to talk to her…ever. Of course, she got Tre’ nothing. Drugs are pretty expensive these days I hear. So I went ahead and got him Avatar Season 1 and we’re just gonna tell Tre it’s from her. She says she’s gonna pay me back, but I really don’t care either way nor do I expect her to.

So other than that small amount of drama it was a pretty good day. Good family, good food, makes for a good day. Pictures forthcoming…

And Happy Mother’s Day to all the wonderful mother’s out there. Hope your day was at least as good as mine.

Current Mood: Happy

X-Mas was good. Just immediate family. Me, mom, sis, and kids. Cousins came over later and hung out for a bit. I actually got up. Normally the kids open their presents in my room. Today, I got up and went in the living room for the first time in ages. Kids had a really good x-mas. We only got stuff for them this year…and boy did they get alot of crap.

I got Tre a media player and he’s yet to put it down. My gift trumped all and that makes me happy. He’s a tad spoiled.

I have some pictures. Got a really good one of Tay. Has a huge smile.

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