Current Mood: Confused

My ex-lady friend, and current good friend has once again been forbidden to talk to me by her significant other. It’s gone so far that she has even removed me as a myspace friend no doubt at the behest of her husband. Let it be known, I have no designs on my ex-lady friend. We are friends. No more.

Really, am I that much of a threat? A 31 year old quadriplegic, anti-social, high school dropout, that lives with his mom, and resides in a bed 24/7…not to mention the 2500 miles in between us. He’s jealous of that? Really? I just don’t get it. Of course I haven’t been in a relationship since I was 15, so what the fuck do I know? I guess I could look at it as he loves her so much he just doesn’t wanna lose her…especially to a 31 year old quadriplegic, anti-social, high school dropout, that lives with his mom, and resides in a bed 24/7…not to mention the 2500 miles in between us.

I almost added him as a myspace friend, but that’d almost certainly acerbate the situation. I’ll just back off and chill. What can I do? Some people are just beyond reason and/or logic.

We’ll always be friends no matter how much…or little we talk. Ours is a bond that can’t be broken…trust me, I’ve tried lol

She’s very persistent.

This is the guy he’s worried about…

Somewhat of a follow up to me being a Rock Band God, my cuz Allen will be excited to hear Rush’s album Moving Pictures will soon be coming to Rock Band. Me, not so excited. The song YYZ will be frustratingly boring to me and I’m just not a huge Rush fan to begin with. In bad news, my mic has a short in it…noooooooo!

Breathe Jamaal, breathe. Ok, moving on. Been watching a lot of Olympics coverage and Usain Bolt of Jamaica is ridiculously fast. That fucker can fly. Won gold easily in the 100 and 200m and broke the world record in both. He won the 200 by like 5 body lengths. It was crazy to see. I’d be embarrassed to come in 2nd.

I watched the woman’s soccer gold medal match this morning and Marta of Brazil has got to be the best woman’s soccer player by far. She was beating double and triple teams consistently all game. So talented. Of course all that talent goes for naught as the U.S. women won in overtime to defend their gold medal from the 2004 games.

That’s really it as far as standout performances. The “Redeem Team” is looking very good but I’ll hold judgment until it’s all over.

I also was shocked to see WALKING is a fuckin’ Olympic sport. Fuckin’ Walking. They was talking about the “competitors” last night and one of the announcers actually said, and I’m paraphrasing “The Russians look really strong. They’ve been walking very well this year.” Are you fuckin’ kidding me!? Really, they’ve been walking well this year? Ridiculous.

In positive news, Tre’ is a fan of Fullmetal Alchemist(my 3rd favorite anime). Which shocked me as there isn’t a whole lot of action. Though it deals a lot with death and morality issues and trying to explain a lot of the things going on to a 5 year old is damn near impossible.

In vacation news, I’m still not looking forward to it. Though it got a little better as we’ll probably take a day trip to Vegas. Little over a 2 hour drive from where we’re staying. Likely check out a couple shows. I’m thinking Blue Man Group. Not big into gambling. Seems like a huge waste of money and time to me.

One last small note.  R.I.P. to Julius Carry III better known to most as Sho Nuff from the movie The Last Dragon.  One of my favorite/fun movies of all time.  Now bow down and kiss his converse!  Rough week for us black folk.  First Bernie Mac, then Isaac Hayes, now Julius Carry III.

And I’m out!

Current Mood: Sick & Sick & Sick

Starring Cate Blanchett, Ted Theodore Logan, the original Talk Soup guy, Schillinger, Lumbergh, Katie Holmes breastesses, and written by Sling Blade.  If you caught all those references, yay for you.

I avoided this movie for many years because it didn’t look all that good. Reviews were pretty bad as well. After a few years I’d hear references to the film here and there, and most was positive. So I begrudgingly added it to my netflix list.

I should have stuck with my original instinct. It was average at best.  The only saving grace was the aforementioned Katie Holmes breastesses.  They were quite impressive.  Not too big, not too small.  Nice bounce.  Seriously though…they were nice.

As for the movie, not as impressive as Katie Holmes breastesses.  I knew who the killer was 20 minutes into the movie which is impressive since the movie went nowhere for about 35 minutes.  The ending was a complete mess.  One of the worse endings I have ever witnessed.  If you hadn’t guessed by now, I say skip this movie.  You could probably find Katie Holmes breastesses online anyway.

Current Mood: Indifferent

Well, as you may know I had planned to go to Cali for Comic-Con. Well, due to unforeseen circumstances we didn’t make it. Well, now we’ve got another much less fun and more family oriented trip coming.

We’re going to some river in Cali with a bunch of family. Normally I’d nix the trip. Not a fan of people, and even more so family people’s. But my grandparents went every year and with what’s recently gone down…well, lets just say, I need to go. I couldn’t very well tell my grandfather he can’t go, because I’m a tad anti-social. So me, my mom, my grandfather, and my great-grandma(who’s senile) are making the trip out there(for the entire fricken’ month of October) near the end of this month.

I’m gonna try to make the best of it. Which is gonna be hard since all the activities available isn’t shit I can do. I’ll likely stay holed up in my room playing Rock Band 2 or Guitar Hero World Tour avoiding people as much as possible. Who knows, maybe I’ll have fun…..yeah, that’s not happening…At least I’ll get to get caught up on some reading.

Current Mood: Surprised

Finally seen Dark Knight and wow.  I had waited cuz I wanted to see it in an Imax theater and due to unfortunate circumstances I wasn’t able to get out to see it until yesterday.  So me, mom, my two cousins and a friend made the 2 hour trip to Olathe to watch it.  And it was so worth it.

Imax is possibly the greatest invention ever.  The screen was massive.  Even better, the screen was gorgeous.  When it had the shots from above the city, it felt like you were above the city.  I imagine anyone with Vertigo would freak the fuck out.  Anyway I love me some Imax

Another piece of awesomeness…The Watchmen trailer.  Color me impressed.  Doctor Manhattan looked great which was my biggest fear…well besides the total anal raping of the incredible story which is still up for debate.  It looks really good.  Gonna have to read it again before the movie comes out.

Now onto the movie.  In the famous words of Joey from Blossom…”Woah”.  It was what I expected and more.  The Joker was incredible, and they will almost certainly catch hell if they try to bring him back.  Heath Ledger owned that role.  He should at least be considered for an Oscar.  And I’m somewhat surprised at how well Harvey Dent/Two Face was done.  Batman has the best villains of any character by far.

Now on the opposite side of things “Batman’s” voice irritated me this movie.  Just about half of what he said in the movie, sounded forced, cheesy or both.  Which bothers me somewhat as I really liked the way it sounded in Batman Begins.  Though I think Bale did a better job in this movie as Bruce than he did in the first one.  All in all, a great movie.  My favorite super-hero movie but Iron Man is close.  I’ll have to watch ‘em both again, see how they hold up.

Great fricken movie.

Also did a little shopping. Got Tre a bunch of clothes for school. Bought a few used, cheap games for him…and me. Including the awesomeness of Shaq Fu…oh yes Shaq fuckin’ Fu! As for me, I bought a few shirts, a nice Jordan jacket, and 3 more hats. A second Kangol, a Chiefs hat, and a Hurley hat. They’re sweet! Thats a total of 14 hats now. All in all, a good loooong day. We left the house at about 9:45AM and got home around 11:00PM. We had a good time though.

Until next time my oh so faithful readers…I’m out.

Current Mood: Indifferent

This post is to get all 3 of you who read my blog up to speed with the goings on in between my drama filled life.

Firstly, and most importantly, I am a Rock Band GOD! We bought the game a little over a month ago and I rock the vocals. I’ve spent about 80 bucks on songs with The Who pack easily being my best purchase. I love singing all those songs. The worst purchase easily being David Bowie’s “Heroes”. As a quadriplegic with very little if any diaphragm control, this song kills me. I literally damn near passed out. I had to lay down in the middle of the song while singing it. I haven’t sang it since. Hate that fricken song.

Only other songs I don’t really enjoy singing is “Epic” by Faith No More and “Sabotage” by the Beastie Boys. Then there’s the songs…well song I can’t sing while anybody(Cody) is in the room cuz he laughs his ass off while I sing it which in effect causes me to laugh thus ruining any chance of a good score. It really is quite comical. Oh the song is Jukebox Hero by Foreigner.

Next up is some celebreality TV. I won’t bore you with details, but right now I’m watching I Love Money and The Two Coreys.

Watched some anime. In particular Captain Herlock(crap), and the first 3 discs of Noir. Herlock was garbage. No redeeming qualities. The jury is still out on Noir. It’s not bad, but the story is taking a loooong time to develop. But it’s interesting enough to keep me…well interested.

In almost anime news, the Avatar wrapped up, and it was sweet! The final fight between Zuko and Azula was fantabulous. Oh I said fantabulous. The music made it even better, epic even. And Azula’s quick descent into madness was great to watch. Very believable. Possibly the greatest character development in an animated series ever. Easily the greatest thing to come out of Nickelodeon.

In related news, I fear for the live action version being directed by M. Night Shyamalamdingdong. Apparently it’s gonna be a trilogy with each movie based on the 3 “books” of Avatar. I hope he(M. Night) can regain his touch from his first few movies. Most would say “what touch?”. Well I personally enjoyed Unbreakable and Signs. Since then, things have gone downhill fast for him.

In semi-related anime news…fuck Keanu Reaves…that is all.

This is already a big post, so I’ll finish it on my next post.

One last note. Thanks to all who sent their prayers, thoughts, and condolences. It really meant a lot. More than you’ll ever know. Again, thank you.

Current Mood: Depressed

Well, the funeral was Wednesday and it was the hardest day of my life. It’d be so much easier if you knew what awaited you after death. Everybody kept trying to comfort me by saying, “she’s in a better place now.” Or “she’s watching over us now, smiling down.” How do you know? You don’t. It might be what you believe, but you don’t know. Nobody does. And if they say they do, they’re lying, crazy, or both. I don’t deny the existence of God, I’m just skeptical. Faith based religion just seems very convenient. The “we have no proof, you just gotta have faith” stuff.

I don’t know. The only comfort I can take from this is that she’s no longer in pain, and I was fortunate enough to have known her. To learn from her, and hopefully keep her memory alive for future generations by being a good son, uncle, cousin, friend, and eventually brother(she who shall not be named still drives me crazy).

Soon we’ll be back to my regularly scheduled blog posts full of “reality” TV, obscure movies, comics, and random shite. Just not yet. Stay classy people. Love your loved ones cuz you never know how long they’ll be here.

Current Mood: Sad

Not much else to say on the subject that I haven’t already said. Got the news about a half an hour ago, that she passed away.

I Love you Grandma…I’ll never ever forget you or your strength or your love.

Current Mood: Depressed & Sad

As you probably know, my Grandma is in her last moments. They’ve removed all the machines and it’s only a matter of time. She’s held on for four days since then. Today, my mom tells me that Grandpa wants me to call her. That maybe she’s holding on because she needed to know I’ll be alright. So I did, and it sucked. I could barely get the words out I wanted to say. I told her I loved her, how much I’ll miss her. Without her, I’ll have no one to talk to, and that I’ll be alright.

But I ask myself, will I be alright? Right now it’s hard to believe that to be the case. I imagine in time I will be. It just hurts so much right now…

Current Mood: Bad & Depressed

A couple days ago I had the oddest conversation I personally have ever had. If you’ve been reading my blog for awhile you probably know, I’m not a fan of she who shall not be named’s insignificant other. Currently he’s still in jail, but out of nowhere he called me yesterday. What’s odd about it, is in the 5 or so years he’s been with she who shall not be named, we’ve never once had a conversation. Our conversations consisted of “wanna play a game or somethin?”. Followed by mono syllabic answers, and cursing under our breath when something doesn’t go right in the game. Yet, when he called, we actually talked. He asked about the kids. He sounds like he’s doing well. He’s in treatment, taking some classes, and generally sounds positive. It was quite the shocker. The oddest thing…he told me he loved me. I was completely dumbfounded as it caught me so off guard my initial response was to chuckle a little. Then he repeated it to show his seriousness and I responded in kind. I know, probably a bad move considering I barely like the dude. Maybe he is changing, maybe this stint in jail, coupled with the loss of custody made him re-assess his situation in life….orrrrrrrrr maybe he’s full of shit, and is as good a liar and manipulator as she who shall not be named. Time will tell I guess. I will say, I was impressed by how he sounded. He seemed to have a pretty positive outlook on the present and future…he seemed to be doing shit tons better than she who shall not be named. We’ll see…we will see.

In other much, much more depressing news my Grandmother had another set back yesterday night after having one of her better days. It doesn’t look good. She needs another surgery which the doctors feel she likely will not be strong enough to get through, but without it, there’s no hope. It’s a lose/lose situation with very little hope and it sucks. I don’t know what else to say…or do. I just try to keep myself busy. Don’t let my mind wander. Unfortunately for me, I’ve been home by myself quite a bit as my mom and family are at the hospital. I just can’t do it(go to the hospital). Everybody handles this type of situation in their own way. I prefer to keep to myself. Other’s just confuse the situation for me more, make it more difficult to deal with. I’ll get through it…Somehow, I always do.

Moving on…The kids have completely regressed since she who shall not be named got a full day pass/visit(previous post). Tayonna is just as she was when all this initially started. It’s so fucking frustrating. Tre isn’t listening for shit. I just don’t know. I’m not cut out for this parenting shit. I’ll continue to do what I need to do, but I won’t be happy about it.

In other news…we leave for comic-con in 8 days for a much, much needed vacation. I’m out!