So I’m back…I guess. Not a lot has changed. Older. Grumpier. Blessed. Not reading as much. Not watching as much. Not going out…ever. Some shit has changed. Niece is in state care. She’s defiant, angry, spiteful, and just not overly pleasant right now. She’s in a state hospital residency thing. Oldest has really gone downhill.[…]

Ok, here’s my last bitchy, whiny, woe is me, life sucks, lonely, shit stain of an existence post…for awhile. I spent over half my life without female companionship. The saying “ignorance is bliss” has never been so perfect. I had no idea what I was missing as I didn’t have it. I was “happy” in[…]

Since my last post, nothings changed. Still a miserable fuck. Have found myself a new play thing. Blonde, young(just turned 23), cute, sexy, and…fun 😉 Best part, she lives many states away and other than the physical there’s no connection. It gets my mind off…things. Which is good. I miss having someone to talk to,[…]

This has been my daily mantra every morning for like 3 years. Sure there were some days that were okay. Sprinkles of hope here and there. There was Tiffany, which at the time seemed amazing, but seriously. That was a fucking nightmare. Yay me! I got to fuck a lying, drug addict. And that was[…]

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Been awhile huh? Not too terrible much to talk about as I’m kind of lazy as you well know. Let’s see…I’ve been out once since going to see The Dark Knight Rises. It was not a good time. We took the kids to Chuck E. Cheese in Joplin. It was hot as fuck and damn[…]

So we had ourselves another night of drunkenness. This time everybody’s favorite curmudgeon was in attendance and he got…well drunk. With that said, I got very very drunk, and very very fast. I don’t know what the hell hit me so hard but it really fucked me up. I slept through a good portion of[…]

So I got an invite on facebook to join zoosk. Dating site or some such nonsense. I have no life, so figure “why the fuck not.” I sign up, set my search settings and start going through my matches. I don’t even get through 10 matches and who do I see…the ex-lady. Needless to say…I’m[…]

I’m done trying. I give up. I don’t know why I thought things would be different this time. No GED pre-test for me today. No getting up. No new wheelchair. Just the same shit, different day. If not for the kids, I’d just completely check out. Nothing for me otherwise. No one to spend my[…]

Yesterday marked 2 months since the split. I handled it much better than the 1 month un-niversary. It’s not any easier, but I’ve learned how to handle it better…don’t be a douche. I’m not gonna dwell on it…in this post. I go Wednesday to take the GED pre-test. Then may have to wait to do[…]