I poured my heart out and got my answer. That answer was given to me in the form of a craigslist ad. I won’t go into detail, but I was being a douche, got into someone’s email and there in black and white was my answer. I fucked up I know. Shitty thing to do. I was desperate. But I guess I have my conflict I needed right? Lies, deceit, jealousy, trust issues, fear, kids. It’s the relationship ending gumbo.
Life will never be as bright without her in it but I gotta try and move forward. Still gonna do the GED thing and still gonna do the college thing, which scares the fuck out of me. But I refuse to be ruled by fear. I’ve seen what it does. I will become a better man for those who do want to be a part of my life.
With that said, I still believe in second chances. I hope one day something changes and we find ourselves back together, but I’m not planning for that future anymore. All I can be is me and hope that’s enough. This time it wasn’t.
Until next time…Good luck Tiffany, I hope you find what you’re looking for and find that happiness that eludes you. You deserve it.